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Is falling in love with your best guy friend a hazard of being gay? It certainly is for me.
It’s like every time I think of him there is something new that I find myself attracted more than before. The other day he told me that he thinks its time that he starts working out because he is starting to get a beer gut. Now I’ve always notice his little pudge but after mentioning it I thought he carried it well and gave him a bit of character. I would miss his pudgy stomach if he ever lost it. The day I realized that I could be falling for his is when I realized that I don’t ever want him to leave when I drop him off at school in the beginning of the day or at home at the end of the day. I know I am only torturing myself with this illusion by feeding myself possibilities. Sometimes I feel the feeling is mutual when he might look at me a certain way or say a certain thing but I know deep inside it was nothing. I want to say that this feeling is different than anything else or if is familiar then I am truly falling.